Platforms of Love

Today basking in the knowing, the sense of belonging

Ever been fired from a job?
from a marriage?

Divorce rips a heart in two
rejection castrates
gluttony fulfills the bully’s and sociopaths for a season
until they target another

and the cycle of hurting people hurt people..continues

you either hemorrhage
or let time heal
Living the innocence of new beginnings~

Someone asked me; “How do you know what you are going to write about?”  The question made me smile.

Remember when I belonged to a neat club on Myspace which evolved into a Facebook blogging community. Met some incredible authors there, miss them and the assignments. It’s great to belong.

Nope, never know what I will write about it kinda evolves with images or pain I feel with attempts of making sense of it all. Take today for instance. Had one contact me about a friend who took their own life, something she wishes she could have interceded in some way.  And with her pain voiced a memory and a soul comes to mind.

He led a gay lifestyle and was so funny, quite a sense of humor however his immediate blood family rejected him. He was lonely. He asked if I would like to go golfing with him, didn’t know how to golf really. Golf was a sad word, it was a game my ex husband chose over being with me even on my first mother’s day. It was a game of escape. So to be a part of that wouldn’t be, until I heard of his demise. How I wish I said yes.  Loneliness swallowed him whole and I never got the chance of knowing him, or my ex for that matter.

Hind sight makes you think differently, they say it’s 20/20 vision

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When one loses respect for themselves, all types of shadows can drown their destiny. If you lose respect for your spouse the marriage is essentially over. Key is allowing the “reason for your being” shine. Seek no matter how painful how deliriously real please just BE YOU and maybe take a breath and count to 10 before you speak. That should do it…now smile and hover here for awhile.

Living in a great place right now. Example; foot long italian sub, pressed down into yummy is too big for me to consume, so I share with my neighbor. She is delighted and says “hold on” and what does she do, gives me a bottle of orange kangaroo and it’s a Merlot.

Giggling I bring it home to open and let it breathe, pour half a glass and walk it to her door and it hits me. We are living a lifestyle that is caring and kind, living LIFE FREE debt free.

It’s a good starting point. Healed to heal. Reflections of this reality were spell bounding

Recently my husbands daughter reached out and saw with a flash how important it was they spend time together. Sure money is tight, funds low, downsized to a 835 sq ft 1 br 1br two dogs and a parrot full. HOWEVER couldn’t get the image out of my mind. The joy received was documented my husband is still beaming

Exactly one month to the date my own daughter sent a ticket for my husband to join them in Canada. Her sharing teared me up and the extension melted my heart to unrecognizable.

“Live generously and graciously toward others, the way God lives toward you.”

Divorce essentially bubble wraps guilt. Remember the day I met my husband, all he could share, couldn’t help sparkle about, was his children and family that “once was”. Later in our relationship he shared he wish he could have “saved his marriage” “understood his wife” and with counsel he finally did. And a portal was open, the portal of second chances. Makes one head spin it does but with helmets on we take the plunge and eventually make it to the other side. We realize we were never really alone, encouragement was everywhere, all we had to do was take the plunge! TRUST OUR GUT and LOVE ON!

This is what God does. He gives his best—the sun to warm and the rain to nourish—to everyone, regardless: the good and bad, the nice and nasty. All one has to do is trust and choose to live generously and graciously. Pristine reflections from on high~

Sometimes we are so busy there is no time to digest beauty. Think this is why people choose alcohol or other means of silencing one’s thoughts or another’s loud opinions. We have become puppets to their needs. My prayer is those lines will be cut. Maybe it will come in the form of being “fired” or even divorce. My prayer is people will recognize their freedom and choose to live FREE. Knowing their thoughts and life is PRECIOUS beyond words and their journey is to set others free while they travel…let the sleepers awaken and kind sharing continue. We are only here for a short while my friends…way to short.

Maybe this is why I blog, documenting the memories incredible beauty which one forgets during adversity. Think this is what Paul meant when He declared;

Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. Philipians 4:8

He was imprisoned at the time and yet look at the wisdom which oozed from him. SO many of us are in our own private cells. Yup it’s time to burst forth and face EXACTLY where we are, breathe in beauty and set ourselves free, take flight from negativity and just pray it isn’t being dispelled by you!

When was the last time you planned an adventure around FUN? Pure unadulterated JOY?! When was the last time you opened your eyes to the beauty around you, that sparkle in children’s eyes, the bird foraging in the back yard or the new blossomed flower? Who did you allow to KILL YOU? You do know someone already paid the price and all you have to do is CHOSE to be happy? You do realize that right? Someone already payed the price 2000 years ago.

Re alignment into resurrection power where radical forgiveness is a choice and there is no more room for abuse only captivating love. Our Lord said it, re wrote the ten He did. All one has to do is step in, step in to the depth and breath of illuminating truth. Fact is our lives have only scraped the surface or else we would not be struggling so. Balance is needed

After you pass the milestone age of 40, you’ll notice it’s more difficult to focus on objects up close because of presbyopia. This is a perfectly normal loss of focusing ability due to hardening of the lens inside your eye which is connected to your heart. Alot of dysfunction has occurred by the time you’re 40. Have you learned to forgive?

Yup the wages of sin is death…death to destiny (goodness that’s my body type in that video!!)

It’s pink and blue it is, no grey about it just need to readjust our vision!!!  So to answer your question why do I write? I don’t have an answer only a “leading” and my prayer it brings joy or direction to some, more importantly change in me. 

DREAM ON MY FRIENDS!!!!!!

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Made a Decision to See the Sunrise

“Ô, Sunlight! The most precious gold to be found on Earth.”
― Roman Payne

Blessed to have one of those friends who loves to investigate Nature and the Wild like I do. So when she called one day last month and suggested a trek was overjoyed to make the time. First on the agenda? Get up early and catch the sunrise of course!!

Our Baptism was complete now to immerse ourselves in NATURE! Our plan was to search out nesting seabirds, heard there was some roped off areas at the Sebastian Inlet, we were STOKED! After all last venture we spied a juvenile Yellow Crowned Night Heron attempting to consume a crab AND the crab attempting to CLIMB BACK OUT OF ITS THROAT! Yup it was caught on video!! In case you missed it will upload here for you!

Every adventure we see some incredible stuff. Today it would be no different except for the eerie realization there was not ONE bird on the beach. Initially it freaked us out. True it was stoking hot but come on NO BIRDS? And then he emerged

It was a crazy thing to witness, he almost got submerged by waves yet so agile indeed, scooping up the tiniest of fish, we certainly didn’t see them in the surf!

The waves were full and the water pristine! If I didn’t have my equipment and a towel would have dove in there myself Yes adulthood rations out tempered actions.

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This bird was so entertaining, he knew I was looking at him too. He had our undivided attention. Looks like we were a day late and could have seen babies yesterday or early that morn!  Yet today we had the gift of this  precious gull or juve Petrel whatever he was, soaring back and forth showing us how to fish.

I loved it when he looked right at me with each catch as if to say “SEE”!

We decided to check out the intracostal and found many gulls, cormorants and terns with an occasional duck flyby! Yeah BIRDS!! Maybe they were waking up as the heat of the day even kept them seeking shade! They were breathtaking to watch

It was time to regroup, hydrate and get under the cool AC. Heard Click Ponds in Viera was being drained and visited by a whole slew of birds so off we went. Traveling west now leaving the sea behind made me feel sad in a way. There is something wild and exhilarating at the ocean. And the sea creatures don’t need oxygen like we do. Spying them is a sweet surprise, like this young sea turtle who poked his head up unexpectedly!

Arriving at Click Ponds we found we were the only photographers there, imagine that! Couldn’t be the 92 degree weather?  At first it was stifling then the temperature didn’t matter, out of the blue this Stilt started soaring into the sly chasing a large raptor OH BOY this meant one thing, we might see BABY STILTS!!! The last time I spied these long pink legged birds was at Green Cay in Delray FLorida, it had been almost one year to the day so I was stoked!  Marsh birds are very shy and can hide quickly, we were armed and ready!

Had no idea Stilts were fearless parents!  This pair was chasing off ANY who came near their wee little ones! We spied three!  OH THEY WERE PRECIOUS! Like witnessing the Purple Gallinule for the first time, speechless.  And then lo and behold we saw what looked like little bumble bees in the grass!! A pair of Whistling Ducks were fruitful indeed!

However as soon as they spied humans they herded their chicks straight away. So different here then at the wetlands down south, there the bird habitat were not as fearful Thankful I spied these precious families. Had to crop the one pic of little bumble bee under mamma’s wing This is when I wish I had a 600 mm lens

Composing this blog just got word my Uncle died. He was a gifted artist and to quote “Through art,” he says, “I found a sense of inner peace. In art, I found my bliss.” Richard Beaulieu

I pause and with tears streaming for the man I thought I didn’t know, reading his words it hits me. We understood each other quite well.

Lights flicker in the house and the brown out leaves me rebooting. Thought the timing was oddly perfect and the message received. I will continue my life without any regrets, making time for the adventure while dusting off any thoughts of rejection.

Read a quote the other day and it smacked me, you know BAM. “Giving up reduces your life,  letting go expands it”   Sometimes we think we had to give something up,  someone divorced you from something you cherished.  Or a loved one was taken from you, unmercifully.  Life has a way of smacking us up the side of our hearts and we don’t hemorrhage?! Tear ducts might, Jesus comes to mind.  He didn’t give up when he went to the cross. He wasn’t dragged.  He never attempted to defend himself.  And when He finally spoke it was; “forgive them Father for they know not what they do”  and resurrection happened.

We have to die to the judgement of others tho remembering He showed us “the way”.  Ahh to live a life in resurgence, authentically, without fear without malice without defilement.  It’s a hard concept to swallow . Mr Anhinga has no problem whatsoever!

So Betsy and I continued down this dirt road searching out Meadowlarks. We could hear them but couldn’t see them. It was scorching,  windows down AC off so we could hear, driving around five miles an hour searching intently when the earth literally shook,  a freakin COW ran up the side of a canal and came barreling out behind us. I thought she was going to come through our window, however fear left us with another suddenly, concentration shifted as a Meadowlark perched directly in front of us.  Oh we just clicked and filmed the moment!

Took my breath away, ok where did the cow go?! It wasn’t difficult to find her, sweet thing asking myself now why we eat meat?!

O gentle beast who broke the fence down to get a drink from the canal scaring two humans and a meadowlark. Thank you

It was approaching dusk. We had a full day and didn’t expect to see what we did. Thanking God for Mother Nature, thinking about the nature of man, my childhood and the moment.

Creator heard my thoughts we experienced one more precious sight; BAMBI! Peering through the woods mamma deer watched me intensely. Thankful she let me see her little one.



“I thank you God for this most amazing day, for the leaping greenly spirits of trees, and for the blue dream of sky and for everything which is natural, which is infinite, which is yes.” ~ E.E.Cummings

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Lens Pro To Go had Items stolen PLEASE READ

I rent my lens from an AMAZING company LensProToGo.com and sadly received an email from them which shared they had over 350 items stolen

“NO WAY”

With this came an amazing testimony and EDUCATION

“We ask that if you are in the market to buy a piece of gear, you cross reference the serial numbers on our list. But it isn’t just our gear, whenever you buy any gear you should get the serial number(s) before purchasing to ensure it hasn’t been stolen. Services like Lenstag and Stolen Camera Finder allow you to search serial numbers prior to purchases, as well as list serial numbers of your own gear.”

“LETS GET THE WORD OUT”

Lets support this HONORABLE COMPANY and search for them and also please try them out. If you have a dream lens RENT IT see if it will fit your needs. The lens gets delivered right to your door for that dream vacation.

“FATHER IN HEAVEN HELP US STOP THE THIEVING”

Just know these thieves will be found …. secure your gear now!!!!!!

LETS ALL GET THE WORD OUT! DETER THIEVERY TODAY

“LORD PROTECT THE GOOD AND LET INNOCENCE REIGN”

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After the Rain

Friendships have always been something I’ve cherished. Never had many friends, two close childhood friends who would love to see again. However life has a way of redirecting our attention.

Was informed one lost her mother and the other; husband became wheel chair bound both from status updates on Facebook.  You say a silent prayer, knowing life certainly is changing, technology adapting to our needs.

And all I really want to do is give them a great big hug, look into their big brown hazel eyes and cry and laugh like we use to. There was a reason why we were best friends, precious moments shared, secrets and dreams and guess what, we evolved into courageous women.

Paula and Gina I will love you forever and ever

Sometimes in life we revisit youthful vigor and innocent reminders of  “what once was” even within our own families.

We attempt to merge reflections towards another, sadly chemistry misconstrued our senses. Ruffled emotions create an unbalanced state . . . and we hold on despite ourselves.

And then you see their beauty, fractured teal eclipsed by glory . . .

Your breathless, no words come from your lips and you know what, it’s ok, time was paused so you could see the hidden

AND observe the obvious

Yup you’re within the forest despite the trees

and you giggle, life certainly has it’s twists and turns and allows us to see the most amazing creatures! Yes, you’re not the only one having a bad hair day!

If we just open our eyes and be still long enough to feel and see the droplets of the past roll off . . .

It’s a good day. So lets rejoice and toast … and raise up our Turtle Eggs . . .

Because after the rain

We will find strength to rise towards the sun and say goodnight to fears. Yes,  to be embraced once again by Grace

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Who is Watching?

Every trek is an adventure and one doesn’t travel far to see nature reveal her beauty. Nope, really all you have to do is be still. This happened to me when concentrating on a Little Blue Jueve, zooming in waiting for the perfect light, this little guy suddenly honked and flew TOWARDS ME! Lowering my lens I saw the reason, Coyote was present and soon vanished after a 3 sec seductive stare which was gloriously captured!

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The grass was thick and so wild with life. Live for these moments so to share the mystery, the beauty, the immmuable story as nature reveals secrets.

Nature does not hurry, yet everything is accomplished. ~Lao Tzu

This particular day met another photographer, they stopped and asked what I was filming, sharing my encounter they quickly retort; “I come here EVERY day and NEVER saw this”  and drove on, even before a verbal response.  Pondered this, well it’s true, sometimes I sit for hours but not always, no it’s kinda like fishing, if you never fished before well then how can I contrast?

Fisherman wait a long time in one area, investigating their pond, becoming one with their environment. Yup observe the Great Blue Heron, they can teach one how to consume just about anything!

I’ve sat with a Heron a few times, one day a few hours! Actually I don’t keep track of time, I get lost in it. Ask my husband.

So how does a Heron Hunt?  Well the deathblow is delivered with a quick stab and the prey is swallowed whole and to be regurgitated later as a “hair ball” casting or pellet. The passing of pellets allows a bird to remove indigestible material from its stomach which is more like a ligament gland then a pouch; proventriculus. Had to look all that up after witnessing this!  Really? TURTLES?! Nature is fascinating!

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A refreshing drink and onto the next meal, mother nature and her realm. It’s such an honor to witness, capture and share! Lately have been going out with my 500 mm and building up my muscles, my close friends know the cost, couldn’t hold that lens up for more then 2 min at a time. My mentor would say; “You’ll build up muscles” and while on these Trek’s it’s walking without a tripod.  Oh and no time to set up a digiscope, do you know how many action shots would be missed doing that?!

It takes practice, patience and thousands of images to upload. A photographer really doesn’t think about this as the import is multi-climatic. Sometimes you see something you totally weren’t expecting! This is why your camera comes with you wherever you go!! Have you ever seen a white peacock?

He saw me first and talk about neck wrenching! Went off the road for this shot and yesterday replaced my tire. It was worth it. Eventually this bird warmed up to my presence and came out on the grass actually VERY close and the moment was breathtaking.

During this particular shot felt another set of eyes on me, yes you do feel this. See why I felt it?

Different glasses to see and capture with aperture precision. Even signed a 2 year contract with AT+T last year, why? For 16 megapixel’s and waterproof up to 30 min of course! This is another tool for nature when she decides to come in real close, like this Sandhill Crane family! Here my sis Rachel and I were concentrating on a little Green Heron nest when I caught this flash to the left of me.  Preciousness beyond words, worth every penny of the 2 year contract!

These are the moments which refresh and invigorate, make you burst out with JOY! Sharing is the best part; recently had this post response to pictures shared on Facebook and the fact is, didn’t even know the truth about this, they pair up for LIFE!

I was just at some friends house for dinner and my friends have been observing a family of these birds for over 20 years……. They mate for life, I love that part, and i love, love, love the heart on their heads……. Wonderful shots Brenda Stevens, thanks for these wonderful photos of love and life and God’s creations……….”   Yup this is why I write and share!

Anything we love, we feel. The latent within rises flushing out all negativity. Such beauty to be seen if we just open the eyes of our soul. Spirit is willing however the flesh is weak? Some flesh is covered with waterproof feathers!

Others get wet so to feed the hungry cry’s, it’s as if they learn from each other and sushi is their dinner! Delicately balanced they spear the water and I’m thankful no gator on the scene. A fish is caught and another mouth is fed, very soon they will fend for themselves. How do they know when not to answer their calls of hunger?

Another sunset approaches, and it has been a glorious day. My body is tired, aches while readjusting my lens however can’t stop smiling knowing I witnessed a bit of heaven today.

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Ruffled Feathers

Love how nature shows up when you least expect it. The suddenly’s which strike you to the core. You kinda sense the mystery, the tension in the air as a portal opens up. It’s why I have invested time, study and purchasing technology which will allow me to steal heaven. Ok maybe that is too dramatic of a statement however it’s close to how I feel.

Such mystery in nature, everywhere you look one can find a habitat where your soul soars

Admiring the view spied an Anhinga and fired a shot. Peering down, quickly checking if my exposure was right I get distracted, whacking sound . . . yup a suddenly had happened and a fish was being pounded into submission.

Firing away caught earthquakes of the most amazing sushi dinner being consumed!!

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Visiting Nature you will be consumed with beauty, comedy and tragedy. The tragedy is reflected in the disrespect some have for our environment.

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In the time of Noah, Jehovah found an upright man to preserve nature. Today we too have an opportunity. The nature of man is confused, and the earth quakes. Migration is in the air and the juveniles are feeding.

And we walk, we observe, we capture beauty and pray for balance.

In the midst of the field I see chaff and wheat growing together and breathe in beauty

A meadowlark appears on a post nearby and sings his lovely tune

“A friend is one to whom one may pour out the contents of one’s heart, chaff and grain together, knowing that gentle hands will take and sift it, keep what is worth keeping, and with a breath of kindness, blow the rest away.” ― George Eliot

And you ask me why I make time to visit nature?

My prayer is I never forget what she teaches.  I end with a busy little red bellied woodpecker doing what he was created to do.

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Season is here . . .

It’s the time when snowbirds congregate and medical professionals serve in their communities. Local shops and restaurants boom with activity and it takes an extra 12 -30 min to get wherever you need to go. YUP consumption is in the air.

Evenings sip some wine and sift through my photos. No time for Treks so might as well organize recent encounters!

DANG vultures are ugly vicariously ripping through flesh. They pause to look at my intentions and within these moments I see their beauty

Never know what you are going to see while walking down a trail. It’s not always the audible, sometimes you feel someone is watching you this is when you get ready with your trigger. Something is about to happen. See a flash in the corner of my eye…a fly by!

It was bigger than a pigeon and had no idea what it was until it surfaced again with a snail in his talons It was a lifer, a Snail Kite! He announced his Victory catch. This federally endangered species frequents freshwater wetlands where its primary food source is the apple snail.

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Recalling each step of this adventure joy rises. Yes so need to touch the depths of truth and the hem of heaven while never forgetting the reason for this season. Yup stretch out beyond my comfort zone and capture the miraculous yet again

Life has a way of smacking you up the side of the head. Just when you think “ahhh THIS is the place, THIS is where my roots will grow deep” you’re yanked into reality. There is a divine path within each of us, timing is of the essence and sometimes chords need to be cut.

Your heart aches.

Ever live with a critical spirit? Someone who ends each conversation pointing out your defects? Have friends who do the same? Call you when they have a need not really wanting to spend time with you rather want you to entertain or “do” for them.  One needs to see this and say goodbye. If they truly cared they would call back and say hello. Yup tough to swallow!

Met up with a group of gifted photographers this year. To spend time with such masters was a treat!  Learned a great deal as they shared their favorite spots and tips towards excellence.  Hope to return the favor one day and have them all stay with us.  This for me is what life is all about, sharing and caring!

We visited country roads in the crisp cold snap which hit Florida, only the troopers surfaced to brave the 21 degrees and wow were we rewarded! Again, another lifer; the GHOST, male Northern Harrier soared right pass me!

Nothing the same about nature, every day a different presentation, a new gift, yup every day an opportunity to capture and give thanks for the tension

Remembering always; “What’s in the Way IS the Way” !

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