Free Yourself

The beauty of nature stills me, lets me get out of my head and plunge deep into my heart

The place where I came from, where knowing was being so immensely aware of the delicate balance of love and harm to any living thing was unheard of;  thought was spun pure.  All one has to do is dip their antennae into the cloud of knowing and receive truth

So many incredible sights to behold this day. The aroma’s so scrumptious, was that lavender or the scent from a melaleuca tree? We even have guides who come to instruct!

However thoughts of “proper technique” and the heat of the moment, may dampen one into self gratification and once on those water’s distraction propels. Yes, the original reason for seeking such an adventure is squelched into oblivion.

Yet there is hope. Always hope, and as we have read many times before, the greatest of these is LOVE. All one has to do is choose, to respond within the realm of Grace, to free themselves from their “man made” bars.

“You’ll have bad times, but it’ll always wake you up to the good stuff you weren’t paying attention to”   Robin Williams

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Bird Impact

Above all else, guard your heart,
    for everything you do flows from it.

Ever spend time in the outdoors and feel rejuvenated?  Listening to the beating waves of the ocean, seeing the spray of water glistening in the light, giggles from innocent laughter of children enjoying daylights presentations, yes, sparkling stars on a moonlit night!

Can you remember the last time you laughed? Felt joy? Do you remember why?

Was thinking about this the other day when my bird, a Congo African Grey, was just chatting away. Certain birds are amazing imitators of speech. Yoshi is just this, love how he laughs, he seems so happy. And then, not sure what he’s thinking about he’ll come out with this guttural voice and he almost sounds possessed. Of course he will probably continue voicing these “sayings” because he gets robust laughter from  visiting adults when they hear his repertoire.


Yoshi would get skinny, ruffle his feathers and stare at this talking child.  Thinking ever so quietly; “Wonder when he will repeat any of THIS scenario?”  I can’t help but giggle  and immediately hear a miniature echo of my voice.

These Red Tailed Hawk pictures were taken yesterday right outside my window, the place where our bird Yoshi was preening himself. Looked into the tree and there he was as big as could be, almost like he was part of the family!

Nature photographer’s live for these “suddenly” moments.   I leapt for my camera and scared my parrot right off his perch.  Feathers floating in the air he landed on a nearby pillow, looked at me and said;  “You alright?”  

Yoshi and this Red Shouldered Hawk are both highly intelligent. One is wild and the other “domesticated“.   One attempts to communicate with this said human, the other stares at her, however his presence impacts me.   I am silenced.  Joy wells up yet again.

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Our Precious Grandaughter MILA!

A Fuzzy Expectation UPDATE 2014

Ever wonder how expectations evolve or are even conceived?! It’s like an urge, familiar and cherished. Everyone has them but just like a laugh, the sound is being launched from different platforms. A progression where a thought is created, built up and finally achieved.

One may desire a lover, friend, home, baby, new career, a job…, travel, lose weight, gain weight, debt free, understanding…or maybe a new pet. Today my concentration is on the latter…A Fuzzy Expectation. And just like any of the above listed, a desire and knowing is involved in the whole process. Hence expectations are conceived and the seed takes root.

Meet TOBY (God is good)

Toby’s first collar

Learning to play safely

Bigger collar

Ever notice how expectations evolve in three’s? Just like expectations, scientists are still not sure what an atom is made up of, however we do know about three parts; protons, neutrons an electrons. We perceive our universe to have three spatial dimensions with earth being the third planet in the solar system. We hear through three semi circular canals in our ears. Also when experiencing an orgasm, another result of great expectations fulfilled, one may see a burst of white light. But there are three primary hues making up this light; red, green and blue. So even vision is “omne trium perfectum”.

During Toby’s maturation another heartbeat emerged within this family!

Meet MILA (Highly favored, Miracle)

We find expectations evolve without much help from us. The only needed additive is a loving atmosphere. Everything else kinda attracts itself for the lessons to be learned so to live within the boundaries of truth.

And someone to lean on in times of trouble

and then came third fuzzy in the most literal form; please meet Ms. Hermione

HERMIONE (travels)

and the story of A Fuzzy Expectation evolves on in all of our lives. May we never forget the end of the story. There is no end…

The pursuit of truth and beauty is a sphere of activity in which we are permitted to remain children all our lives.   Albert Einstein


Toby is still TOBY and Hermoine has had two litters of lovable kittens!! Let me share their growth :) awesome family growing strong!!  And MILA got her birthday ride AGAIN!

I look at the growth over the years and tear up. SO precious!!! Knowing Toby is getting very old in doggy years, so is
Hermoine in kitty years. One day Mila will have to say goodbye and her lil heart will know loss. Not now though, no not
now and as I tear up here thinking of all the ones who have gone before me, think of how my precious family my heart overflowing in gratitude. So thankful one day we will ALL be together again, all my pets, the family I had to lose YES one day we WILL all be together REJOICING and to my dying day we will continue to REJOICE in ALL that Our Precious Lord has given us.

Every day is a gift if only we will open our eyes and see. Father help my friends and all who read this know Your intimacy, Your love Your abundant care for us. Amen

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This Day

Traveled to Viera Wetlands the other day and lo and behold it was closed. These trails are different from what one is use to down south.  This wetland is surrounded by a dirt road so it’s great for the wheel chair bound as they drive around and observe nature from their air conditioned car.  However if it rains heavily the day before they close the route as a car may get stuck.

So what did I do? Hiked around the area on foot and almost passed out from the heat! It was worth it as breathtaking beauty was everywhere.

Saw one brave soul on a bike and this guy decided to fly in and take a look at us. Yes he was watching him and me perty down closely.

Birds are fascinating. They look right through you. Thankful I wasn’t a threat and my approach didn’t disturb them.

Loved this cute basking Anhinga and lil Tri Color Heron as he fluffed himself up in the Sun. They too were enjoying the gift of daylight on their body.


Wild butterflies, dragonfly’s and birds in flight. What more could one ask for? Yes, I was in Heaven

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Yup you have to have it to see them,  vision is a gift,  understanding a virtue  and every time we walk in nature a moment is birthed and sometimes a message pierces our heart.

 “If I paint a wild horse, you might not see the horse… but surely you will see the wildness!”  ― Pablo Picasso

Been taken out of some environments which weren’t healthy for me. A friend recently stated; “You were sent for a reason” and it was about a totally different subject matter, however her words struck me and the proverbial chord was now echoing in my heart.  Was in the now,  not looking back or even concerned about tomorrow,  yes,  a miracle indeed!

When my father died,  my mom was exposed to some elements of the harshest kind and one totally understood her loss.  Death has a way of doing this and though we know it truly will touch every human being,  sometimes we live like it shan’t.

When the husband of my youth left me,  the shock was appalling.  Never visualized my life with out his physical presence next to me.  His sensuous nature was all consuming and he plunged deep,  who else could master such love? It’s then one learns the here and now is an illusion of sorts.  Every time I looked into my children’s eyes I saw the promise,  the hope, the transfiguration of a love so real,  a memory never to be stripped away. It didn’t matter about our own personal weaknesses for radical forgiveness was in motion

This last year has been interesting.  People have been inviting me to film with them, souls with similar passions, “angels on earth“.  These sisters and brothers with the same Love I have being in nature.  Some are full fledged Ornithologists,  humble and educating.  Others lonely and frail and one a mighty saint.  Each has their story,  each so translucent and wonderfully made. The human capacity to love is outrageous!

When on a trek in nature all your senses are ready to capture the moment. You are keenly observing every leaf, branch,  every ripple of water or shaking grass.  Patiently scanning you see,  even when it’s quite dark!

And you find, after the rain is when many seek the sun . . . so to be able to soar again

Three days after my dad died I had a dream. In that dream he appeared to me, he came out of a blizzard, white blinding crystalized snow, so vividly he came,  onto a back porch where I greeted him and he shared how he was being taught by Archbishop Sheen “how to draw a straight line” thinking it was an infantile statement  he grabbed my hand and there was a pencil in it and he put his hand on top of mine to guide me, to also draw a straight line.  Immediately I knew what the plumb line of righteousness was.

The here and there were a reflection of the whole, in an instant I knew what was meant by; “The eye through which I see God is the same eye through which God sees me; my eye and God’s eye are one eye, one seeing, one knowing, one love.”  ― Meister EckhartSermons of Meister Eckhart

Now to trust the Hand that is Guiding me.


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Breezy Days

Read something which kinda made me say out loud; “Hummm”

“I am not what happened to me, I am what I choose to become.” CG Jung

Well “clap clap clap”  I chose living stress free without even realizing it!!! Ok not TOTALLY stress free,  still adjusting to the facts; no health insurance, no steady income, the kinda stuff for a lifetime I felt was necessary.

Maybe I am finally growing up spiritually?

A dear friend recently wrote; “If we desire to let go, it means that there is something we are holding on to that really matters to us.  It could be an expectation, a core belief,  a need to be right or a deep wound.  The need to hold onto something we hold dear or find important causes us to tighten or cling to what we know or believe.  I always tell people that it’s not the situation that causes our feelings, but the meaning we give it. This makes it very personal and perhaps difficult for others to understand.   So, rather than consider whether you are ready to let go, consider loosening around the meaning you have attached to it.  Since our personal beliefs are so dear to us, we may find this difficult” ~ Mary Canane LMHC

She was so right and sometimes when it isn’t for our best interest a “suddenly” just may have to happen in our own lives to sever us from deaths door.  If that wasn’t enough to digest this morning my alarm clock woke me up on a day I didn’t have work. So what do I do, well open up my messages of course!  Another smack hits me, this time it was from a photography friend on Facebook. Her post read like this;

“Don’t take anything personally. Even when a situation seems so personal, even if others insult you directly, it has nothing to do with you. Their point of view and opinion come from all the programming they received growing up. When you take things personally, you feel offended and your reaction is to defend your beliefs and create conflict. You make something big out of something so little because you have the need to be right and make everybody else wrong.” ~ Don Miguel Ruiz

So after a prayer and giving thanks went back to bed smiling. Disconnection from stress, letting go of control, was going to be a whole new way of living.  A welcomed adventure indeed!

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You Did Hear!

Life changes and almost didn’t travel due to financial restraints. Remember my daughter saying; “Mom you need to breathe in this fresh Canadian air”,  she was so right.  First morning light was greeted by chirping birds and now could see the mist rising over the water.  Mysterious indeed, knew it was time to capture this on film

The air is cold, not use to seeing my breath. Memories of my New England childhood flood in and these sights tear me up. Deep greens and little pine cones and daisy’s laden the grass. My buddy Toby kept me company as visions unfolded. We were in the country!



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Everywhere beauty was to be found and was caught up in the Joy of the unfolding light.

Birds were everywhere and their movements so swift, not like back home where the stationary Egret or Great Blue Heron would be found stalking prey. No it was different here in the Canadian woods. Could hear them however tracking them was an art in itself they certainly did not sit long!

Of course the most amazing moments were viewing the interactions of my loving family. Cuddles and flower smelling, canoeing and swinging, living without trauma or drama.

As I sit here sipping my coffee in the early morning hour, reviewing the photo’s and compiling for this blog I look up. Inscribed on my children’s wall are these words;

“May Our Home know joy, each room hold laughter, 

every window open to great possibilities”

Thank you God for answering my prayer

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