Be my Valentine?

A Fuzzy Expectation UPDATE 2024

Ever wonder how expectations evolve or are even conceived?! It’s like an urge, familiar and cherished. Everyone has them but just like a laugh, the sound is being launched from different platforms. A progression where a thought is created, built up and finally achieved.

One may desire a lover, friend, home, baby, new career, a job…, travel, lose weight, gain weight, debt free, understanding…or maybe a new pet. Today my concentration is on the latter…A Fuzzy Expectation. And just like any of the above listed, a desire and knowing is involved in the whole process. Hence expectations are conceived and the seed takes root.

Meet TOBY (God is good)

Toby’s first collar

Learning to play safely

Bigger collar

Ever notice how expectations evolve in three’s? Just like expectations, scientists are still not sure what an atom is made up of, however we do know about three parts; protons, neutrons an electrons. We perceive our universe to have three spatial dimensions with earth being the third planet in the solar system. We hear through three semi circular canals in our ears. Also when experiencing an orgasm, another result of great expectations fulfilled, one may see a burst of white light. But there are three primary hues making up this light; red, green and blue. So even vision is “omne trium perfectum”.

During Toby’s maturation another heartbeat emerged within this family!

Meet MILA (Highly favored, Miracle)

We find expectations evolve without much help from us. The only needed additive is a loving atmosphere. Everything else kinda attracts itself for the lessons to be learned so to live within the boundaries of truth.

And someone to lean on in times of trouble

and then came third fuzzy in the most literal form; please meet Ms. Hermione

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HERMIONE (travels)

and the story of A Fuzzy Expectation evolves on in all of our lives. May we never forget the end of the story. There is no end…

 

The pursuit of truth and beauty is a sphere of activity in which we are permitted to remain children all our lives.Albert Einstein

UPDATE ONE YEAR TO THE DAY LATER!!! :0)

UPDATE 2O13

MILA IS 3

UPDATE 2014 MILA IS 4

Toby is still TOBY and Hermoine has had two litters of lovable kittens!! Let me share their growth 🙂 awesome family growing strong!!  And MILA got her birthday ride AGAIN!

I look at the growth over the years and tear up. SO precious!!! Knowing Toby is getting very old in doggy years, so is
Hermoine in kitty years. One day Mila will have to say goodbye and her lil heart will know loss. Not now though, no not
now and as I tear up here thinking of all the ones who have gone before me, think of how my precious family my heart overflowing in gratitude. So thankful one day we will ALL be together again, all my pets, the family I had to lose YES one day we WILL all be together REJOICING and to my dying day we will continue to REJOICE in ALL that Our Precious Lord has given us.

2015 Mila is 5

 

2016

 

ANOTHER YEAR GONE wow, and love continues to grow, starting 1st grade next month. Mila is now 6!!!!!!!!!!!!!

She discovered scissors,  redesigned her bangs and found out she’s actually a mermaid with legs !!!  Ahh the days of innocence.

SADLY this update reveals the loss of one of her companions as precious Toby left this world Aug 3, 2009 – July 12, 2017.

 

Every day is a gift if only we will open our eyes and see. Father help my friends and all who read this know Your intimacy, Your love Your abundant care for us. Amen

Happy Valentines Day precious friends and family never stop hoping

Never stop LOVING

yup it’s time to embrace innocence once again yup you’re worth it

every tear drop.

P E N I S

Practice Every New Idea Safely

Had the very best time the other day !! Precious coworker, like family to me, also had the day off!

“I want to go to Circle B !!”

So off we went to this magical place, a place of healing.

Circle B Bar Reserve, on the northwest shore of Lake Hancock, is a former cattle ranch that today hosts a wide variety of plants and animals. You can see several distinct ecosystems in this reserve of 1,267 acres. Guaranteed every visit will be different and today was no exception.

I should’ve known it would be this type of trek precursor, upon arrival to her home “knock knock knock YOUWHO ♫⋆｡♪ ₊˚♬ ﾟTaraTara I’m heeeere” Needless to say that man clad only with a towel was not Tara, but it sure did put a smile on both our faces!

The trail was just beautiful just as I had remembered it. It doesn’t matter what time of day you come, sunlight is refracted through portals of energy.

Nature was communicating and we were blessed to be present.

You never know what will pop up it may be a bobcat walking down the trail today we had several visitors one sweet little raccoon found his way to his borough before we came too close

Then there was this little armadillo

It was comical to see this poor little, praying mantis jump for his life upon the calf of Tara and terrorized her. She sure had me giggling this day. there must’ve been a multitude of praying mantis because one became a meal for an egret!

And then came this tree …

🙂 humm

And this one 🙂

Her wheeze ….

It was a glorious day full of natures surprises, breathtakingly serene accompanied by my friend we were surrounded by joy.

Yes it was a time of celebration, a time of reflection, with clips of reminders everywhere, literally and symbolically!

And the message…

Yes practice every moment in kindness and with expectancy, JOY!!!

Every day truly is this, a gift.

one just has to be present

Love RED

New thing actually, guess it grows on you, maybe it comes during seasons of war.

Alpha Romeo, rent-a-car choice , this or a white SUV? … nah VAROOM it was.

Red attracts the sweetest things sweetest moments

Let’s hear it for red and the submersibles, yes the times of refreshing.

They’re all around us however we may miss these flashes of hope….invitations for change

As prickly as some choices may be REMEMBER you are attracting subconsciously, the lesson.

A famous variant is attributed to Gloria Steinem: “The truth will set you free, but first it will piss you off.”

My mom would always say; “Brenda what you tolerate doesn’t change” As she would throw the clear bristled brush past my head. It hurt when she brushed my hair, my wild Irish curls wouldn’t be tamed then nor now 🙂

Ahh the search for red our greatest adventure

Reptiles in Nature

“Human diversity makes tolerance more than a virtue; it makes it a requirement for survival.” Rene Dubois

One must respect the reptilian people among us. They love keeping the AC down to a minimum of 70F, and if the choice was theirs it would be consistently set at 65 or 18 degrees Celsius. They may be a menopausal woman and these shape shifters are usually in a position of authority hence they and can malign you for life.  DANG!  Do you know anyone like this?  Let’s observe nature’s way of dealing with this species. : )

When you come right down to it, if they have teeth, lived longer on this earth then you, evolved and survived even the ice age, that alone musters respect! Thanks to conservation alligators are thriving in America today, a rare success story indeed. State and federal protections, habitat preservation efforts and reduced demand for alligator products have improved the species wild population to more than one million and growing today. Below is a picture of a female alligator who is protecting her brood. Yes they are great parents!  As big and ferocious as the female alligator may look, she is a gentle mother. She makes a nest on shore, where she lays her eggs then she guards her eggs until they’re ready to hatch. At that point the babies start to make noises, and their mother hears her little ones’ peep as they break out of the eggs. She gently carries them—in her mouth—to the water nearby.  Fascinated to learn the sex of the young is determined by the temperature at which the eggs incubate during development!  The picture above reveals three baby gators in and about mama gator, can you see them?

Incubation temperatures below 86F from days seven to 21 after laying results in all female alligators while above 93F causes all the young to be males. Temperatures between these two result in batches of both genders. After 21 days, temperature fluctuations do not alter the gender of the hatchlings that will emerge.

Newly hatched young are only about six to eight inches long, and very vulnerable. Their mother protects them from predators, which include raccoon’s, bobcats, birds, and even other alligators The young alligators stay with their mother for up to two years. After that, they’re able to fend for themselves. Isn’t that amazing? Haven’t recognized other species doing this for their young, they are left on their own right after a fledge with birds and 6 to 9 weeks with mammals.  Yes we have great respect of these huge reptiles  roaming among us and nature respects them too. After all how many moms do you know hang around 2 years to see them into safety??  You can see nature looking at me the same way I think I look at nature; curiously, respectively and a joint venture indeed.

A local photographer captured one great blue heron flying off with her young that GBH almost didn’t make it! © Ted Roberts



“Let’s go surfing mom”

As I crept around and among the reeds to spy these huge creatures had one come out with all this foliage around his head! They certainly know how to hunt, lurking and hiding quietly among us,  they thrust forward when they feel the need to munch and crunch! They know how to hide quite well and can stand on their hind legs if they have to.  One actually did just this, stood up and thrust sideways, it was a suddenly, a rush to capture and the expression priceless. Yes we respect and keep our distance from these amazing creatures.  Thinking now respect doesn’t have any noise attached to it.  Respect makes it’s own splash and you usually hear about it ; after the fact. It’s their choice to rise up, lunge and chomp. It’s my choice to stay on the boardwalk and respectfully take pictures. Yup, learned from nature, to keep a safe distance from these beasts and they have too!

Adorable Racoon keeping his distance from the shore laden with GATORS!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lo3HhFDIYUY

Salty Me

Went to the beach and wow what a discovery, cutest lil crab ever, think this one is called the Ghost Crab. Actually was spying a Willet fishing in the surf when a flicker of sand moved and look who crawled out. Gosh did he move fast!

As he was scurrying to and fro couldn’t help but smile. Here I was beached after having a personal physical challenge and here was this lil creature looking right at me.

The water was so warm with a few shorebirds scurrying about. Raw Florida, natural dunes and white white sand. We are so fortunate to live so close to the beach and river.

See thought I would swim a bit, beautiful calm waters when bam hit a trough right at the shore, waters now up to my waist instead of my ankles, waves slapped me good, actually beached me! Certainly Mr Willet wondered what the heck this human was up to.

Mud masked crawled my way to my towel, no lifeguards at this remote beach, nor visitors which actually was a relief. My pride looked up at blue blue skies despite the burn in my eyes Salt water has a way of making you feel so buoyant, until the relationship is broken. Ahh and then came the delicate Tern fishing for dinner. Drying off was now a frantic patting hands clean so to capture her form on film.

Spying these sea birds delighted me so, it was worth it, every huff and puff even the extra gas needed to get to this heavenly spot. Why have I denied myself these seascapes? Why have I stopped exercising? Is this what growing old is about? Is this what depression feels like? Well if so, think I will just have to close that door.

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Yup, time to close the door to depression in all its forms. Fact is didn’t realize denying myself the exposure to nature, disciplining despite the pain, despite the exhaustion, yes takes time, but in a crazy wild way makes time and you rejuvenate! Yup it’s time to dream again, constraints of my mind OFF

time to eat the seaweed : )

Static

Crazy world reports and more than ever thankful for the quiet times. Spacing time spent on social media though do enjoy these new apps! However this month a bit pissed off processing a new find indeed, someone stole my identity. Nothing that wiped out my bank account or ruined my credit, no nothing like that more an attack on my art. Fake site with my picture, my name and a web site selling my photography in Pakistan of all places! When one is “stolen from” plagiarized or worse, a hidden jewel from my teachings whisper sanity.

 Summing it all up, friends, I’d say you’ll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious—the best, not the worst; the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse. Put into practice what you learned from me, what you heard and saw and realized. Do that, and God, who makes everything work together, will work you into his most excellent harmonies.

Thankful we can pick and choose, not necessarily an assignment, never know who you are going to Rx yet, if your inner compass is aligned outcomes will be filled with a sense of job well done. In this sense shift my thoughts into the people who will find comfort purchasing my art.

For with what measure ye mete it shall be measured to you again Luke 6:38

Many are on tilt these days, private battles have worn them down to their core, no faking your essence, road rage is a perfect example. Yes, another reason adore Instacart; same day delivery without the hassle of driving, parking and interaction with other humans, guess I like camouflage, ahh to hide in plain site.

Looking back at my camouflage shots makes me smile, little did I know how the trip in 2016 would bring me comfort today. Pre Covid….pre upheaval for many, pre reset, pre reveal, onwards we trek.

You’re the same person as in 2016 however this year; being a patient yourself well it changes you. PTSD is real. Sigh…an inwards we process. How do you process?

Today lean on the importance of staying thankful. With all the monetary pressures one must understand the debt cycle. Declutter where possible remembering if you can’t find an opportunity to have fun, celebrate, contemplate so not to lose a sense of belonging, a sense of purpose! Work towards a goal, discipline yourself, love yourself enough to shed the apathy of this season.

My goodness get out in nature, ride a bike, learn to surf, W A L K, just breathe!! It’s time to turn off the TV, put down the Harlequin novels, yes let grief ebb.. My friend it’s time to live again. After all you do realize we are at war? Yes Covid was designed to KILL, 9/11 was designed to dismember, and we are called to live in the now. Define shipwrecked 🙂 heck, it’s all a very deep adventure.

“Real generosity toward the future lies in giving all to the present.” – Albert Camus

Summer Heat

Are you hot?! 🙂

No AC, no working washing machine, yup like living on a boat minus the rocking of the waves putting one to sleep. Oh and lets add modern day plague with a senile President to the mix. Ok maybe not full blown dementia, however after being in the health field since I was 15, guess what, recognize mental decompensation. Also recognize engineered recidivism and the artificial creation of a disease with a pandemic response.

This is my world, yet can’t help but smile. One must learn to withdraw from this knowing, so to rise above the insanity, the heat and aggravation of no return.

Think once we realize we subconsciously attract what we need for the lesson, the battling becomes easier. Always remembering every war, every heartache will eventually boomerang one back on the road to discovery. You will face many defeats yet key is not to be defeated, NEVER give up hope!

“Iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another” Proverbs 27:17

Think the most hurtful disagreements can happen in the constraints of family. Ghosting has to be my personal worse treatment towards any human being; Ghosting — when someone cuts off all communication without explanation — extends to all things, it seems. Most of us think about it in the context of digital departure: a friend not responding to a text, or worse, a lover, but it happens across all social circumstances and it’s tied to the way we view the world. Trust me, if you’ve been ghosted hind sight will reveal; you’ve been blessed. Divorce or any broken relationship. As my Gary loves to quote; “when one door closes another opens”. Yes, another wave of refreshing will begin.

Emerald is a shade of green, a color that symbolizes balance and harmony

Today back battling in the medical field. Why? A still small voice encouraged me to get back up. Mountains of medical debt, credit card debt one can’t help to dust off and plow forward, yes run the good race or be plowed over. Honestly the journey will refresh you, not saying you won’t feel pain, you won’t question “WTH?” you won’t feel hot streams flowing from your eyes, may even question your sanity…..just when you think you’re done…..a suddenly will come.

Key is never ever give up hope, get back up, oh and look up, look down, look all around! Yes miracles abound however usually not found while laying around in a paralytic fetal position of poor me. Story of Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory come to mind. 🙂

Today not sure who this will touch, maybe no one and that is ok, its a prayer being sent over cyber space, knowing every ounce of kindness, love thoughts and actions, TOUCH and yes CHANGE what may seemingly be impossible, no matter how dark it may appear.

HOPE will rise, opening portals of the miraculous, and this I pray for you, no matter how dark it may seem……don’t give up, never give up. AND it doesn’t matter how slowly you go, as long as you do not stop! The landscape may be hilly, apparently mountainous, with lots of unknowns and scary things to face, remember it’s usually scary for those “others” too.

“I look around and see so much fear, people getting more and more comfortable with their hate, more at ease being mean, more united in their separation. And I think, NO. Not me. I will not get lost in this fearful world. I will not play with bullies. I will continue to be brave and kind. I will speak for real unity. And no matter what, I will never stop loving.”
― Scott Stabile

Fragility

Was looking at the flowering buds thinking about the beauty of spring. This year we are saving all our organics as compost. Little did we know what our pile would reveal nor who it would attract!

You never know what beauty will evolve from a compost pile~

One may +feel+ like +trash+ momentarily in life. Well if your beloved +trades you in for a younger version+ or ANYONE. Your betrothal had nothing to do with your soul, nope you were always expendable. Sigh ….you look up and wonder why~

Photo captured by my precious friend ©Judith Davies

Today I smile knowing truth; as long as YOU are kind, honest, guess what, you will ALWAYS end up on the right path and in the arms of +meant to be+ All you have to do is BELIEVE!! Yup it will put a smile on your face, masked or unmasked!

Today is Cinco de Mayo

May is a refreshing month, the month of my precious first borne daughter!! Was so teary eyed reminiscing, ahh they grow up so fast. Both daughters in their 40’s this year DANG life has a way of zipping by! Remembering our last venture to her home in the middle of the good ole USA. Vibrant green, vibrant daughter! She’s quite the entrepreneur! Amazon queen!

Remember when she was YOUTUBE phenomena, winning awards left and right….and then she morphed. Quite a feat in this day an age of Covid, stripping the human to expose all weakness, yup what one is; magnifies!

And the beauty I see? Yup makes this mama proud!

“Life can be a storm, but your hope is a rainbow and your friends and family are the gold.” — Steve Maraboli

Walking amongst the beauty of her land, reacquainting with my grands, letting them meet my best friend once again, well life sure felt FULL, and to be filled was a necessary! Little did we know what was about to manifest in ALL our lives. I thank God for the memories, and what the true meaning of family is all about, YES how staying grateful is the inoculation against apathy….death amongst the living. Yup ya just gotta HANG ON, never EVER give up!

Elena wanted a pet cow, never forget the time she caught one and literally halter trained it and gave it daily showers! That drooling calf LOVED her, sadly the owner figured his money maker broke through a fence. Thankful this lil guy knew genuine love before he was slaughtered. Life can be a gruesome reality for the vegan. Not the consumer tho, no, they just eat what they do not have to slaughter, but I digress.

Most recently she fell in love with a lil calf the Amish had I believe, it had a heart on it’s forehead and from what I remember; “love at first sight” for both human and animal. It broke in through the doggie door and made its way up to her bedroom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It’s a good thing she had halter trained her calf so to get her back outside. Cows are so intelligent and love being part of a family. I really think she thought she was a dog.

This precious beast recently gave birth to yet another offspring of love; yes another heart on a forehead being raised by the Amish. Her land wasn’t large enough, yet somehow deep in my heart think this will change, afterall, my grands are observing all of these precious memories made. It kinda seeds the future generations, ALL of our interactions…don’t you ever doubt your presence doesn’t make a difference!

Each time you love, love as deeply as if it were forever.- Audrey Lorde

Is ignorance bliss? NAH!

Aim and trust the process

Went to the beach last night, its been a habit of ours, wonderful habit. Every time we elect to dine out we make our way to the ocean to digest. Nature has a way of refreshing 24/7, a wonderful dessert.

It’s a gift we give to ourselves. Old and grey now, we smile, reflections are shocking as our spirit doesn’t feel quite THAT old, yet we know we only got a 100 years to live….. ~ we’re moving on.

“Fishing is like dating; it’s all  catch and release until you find a keeper.”

Tears stream my cheeks, hot ones as it’s a season of great awakening, great change. Heard so many times the change must be within so one can stand on the truth, for alone sometimes one must stand.

A well-developed sense of humor is the pole that adds balance to your steps as you walk the tightrope of life.– William Arthur Ward

Walks in nature keep me sane. Choosing to react with kindness today is a martial art; the white belt who never quit. This month remember teachings from my youth, a delicate webb embraces with the now.

“We touch other people’s lives simply by existing” -JK Rowling

Spied a lone Willet fishing an intimate moment captured. Shore birds always amaze me, ignoring the humans they live and find sustenance, a teaching I need to remember.

Never disappointed with nature scapes. Truly an injection of almost subconscious rememberings, which heal. It’s as if Gary knows as he voices; “You ready?” as light rain mists our faces.

Looking back spy another squadron flying in. Sometimes it’s difficult to pull away.

“I’m ready”

It’s a half truth reply. It will be dark soon however what I will be ready for is the upload! 🙂

“The heart of man is very much like the sea, it has its storms, it has its tides and in its depths, it has its pearls too.”– Vincent van Gogh